posts on Saqib Razzaq — Unfiltered notes to self

The life I want is the life you have

Sun, 12 Mar 2023 00:00:00 +0200

I recently moved to Europe, away from family, friends and everything I held dear. To live on my own. In a country I haven’t visited before, with a language I don’t understand and a culture I’m not familiar with.

This massive change brought a set of challenges and discomforts. But I’m also experiencing something I haven’t fully embraced before.

Solitude. Space to reflect. Time to understand myself. Opportunity to raise questions and find answers. Though the answers aren’t always what you expect.

I must stick to my word

Fri, 29 Oct 2021 00:00:00 +0200

Talk is cheap. It is meaningless unless backed by actions.

How many times have I failed to execute an action that I had promised myself to?

How many times have I knowingly wasted my time even though that’s the biggest thing I preach to others?

How many times have I delayed a task or completely skipped it knowing that it was going to benefit me if I push through that face?

Live life to the fullest

Fri, 27 Aug 2021 03:07:00 +0200

3:07 am

Life is all about perspective, you know. One day you’re thinking you have nothing going good in life. You feel like everybody is passing you by. You only think and look at the things that are going bad. Until you take a moment to sit down and think about what’s going great. Until you can stop and look at the things that make your life so blissful. Until you stop and realize that you have a wonderful life as it is.

Give Me a Sign

Fri, 01 Jan 2021 00:00:00 +0200

I drag myself out of the bed
Screams of night still stuck in my head
Better day hopes are slowly crumbling away
Should I run for the day or would I rather be dead

Don’t wanna face the day
But still gotta fight for bread

Don’t wanna feel like crap
But still gotta high for med

Don’t wanna cry and weep
Don’t wanna curse and bleep
Don’t wanna shoot me down
But life’s nothing but dread